kshandra: The Burning Man effigy, lit in blue neon, arms by his sides; an orange half-moon is visible over his shoulder. (Default)
Load-in for BayCon starts on Thursday, and over on the Book of Face I'm starting to see desperate pleas from friends looking for people to work in their departments (including one person who, despite every attempt to avoid same, found out at the final staff meeting that they are running their department).

And I'm torn between feeling bad for my friends and wanting to help out...and schadenfreude that I got the fuck out when I did.
kshandra: Cartoon of a young girl, a purple streak in her hair, at a computer; the text reads "dear blog, I HATE EVERYONE!" (I Hate Everyone)
A bout of very public drama on Facebook Tuesday ) has done nothing to help my overall mental state. On top of this, I'm badly overdue for a replacement mask for my facehugger, so I've been waking up several times a night when the vents pop open and the pressure changes (to say nothing of the extra noise). And it's been more than 12 months since I got the machine, so my prescription has expired, and the company I got it from can't send me any new supplies until the scrip has been renewed. I found a store online that would sell me one without it, and I should have it by Monday, but having to pay out of pocket for it annoys me.

It's been a real struggle not to eat my feelings every night.
kshandra: long-haired woman silhouetted against a stormy sky (Bad)
Left LA around 11ish this morning; arrived at Offhand Manor about an hour ago. I drove the entire route, after [livejournal.com profile] murphymom and #1 Son split driving duties on the way down. (As I noted to both of them, I spent eight years driving 8-10 hours a day for a living - and always ended up back where I started. So this was an improvement.)

The funeral was..."lovely" seems an inappropriate word, but it's the best one I've got. It went much better on an emotional level than I had feared it might. The rest of the trip, OTOH.... I am so not ready to discuss what happened yet; suffice it to say it involved an Emergency Room visit and very little sleep last night. [livejournal.com profile] kor27 is a Hero of the Revolution for having been my sanity anchor after [livejournal.com profile] gridlore had to go to sleep; honorable mention goes to [livejournal.com profile] firestrike for fielding the first round of panicky text messages until he had to turn in as well.

Before I left work on Friday, I let my supervisor know that there was a possibility I wouldn't be in tomorrow; I'm emailing her to let her know that has now become definite, because I am certainly in no frame of mind to be dealing with people yet.
kshandra: The Burning Man effigy, lit in blue neon, arms by his sides; an orange half-moon is visible over his shoulder. (Default)
Two nights in a row!

Got the generous offer of a ride to the bar from [livejournal.com profile] lysana and [livejournal.com profile] blackfyr; confirmed a ride home from [livejournal.com profile] kor27 (so they didn't have to deal with driving 20 miles out of their way before going home themselves) and accepted happily. Got there in advance of the first round, and closed the joint down (kind of necessary when you're riding with the host).

Thursday, November 23 )

I was supposed to have sketti sammiches tonight with the Sk8rgrrl at [livejournal.com profile] murphymom's, but I showed up in a bad mood (related to the fact that I showed up alone), and #1 Son managed to piss me off completely before the water even came to a full boil, so I stormed out. The Sk8rgrrl, bless her, sent me a text message saying she was sorry #1 Son was "being himself," and that she loved me and wanted to see me again soon. I texted her back and told her not to make me cry while I was driving. ;~)

I absolutely did NOT want to go home yet, so after indulging in a bit of retail therapy (I went to Body Exotic and got the rest of the earrings I needed - not only was it cheaper than the Black Friday laptop I was fighting the urge to go put on the credit card, but it turned out to even be cheaper than I was originally expecting when I put the earrings on my wishlist) and then driving around aimlessly for a while, I remembered seeing a karaoke banner at a restaurant not far from home. Thus, here I sit at the Sherwood Inn, gradually getting outside a Bailey's rocks and waiting for the show to start.

Friday, November 24 )
kshandra: Porcelain dragon figurine stares at the camera, arms crossed and eyebrow raised (HighlySkeptical)
Despite clearly stating that my latest cull was not intended as a personal slight to anyone, and that I was willing to talk about it IN EMAIL if someone wanted me to reconsider, one of the people I dropped (no, I won't tell you who) left a comment on an unrelated post, saying "Thanks for letting me know you were skimming my posts. I'll be sure to return the favor."

I disabled comments on that post because I didn't want to discuss this in public. Blatantly disregarding my wishes on this only proves that I made the right decision.
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